For My Lyubov

Happy birthday, my life, my love, my wife, and the most precious thing I own in this world. This day is special to me because it is the day the most beautiful person who ever entered my life was born — the person who made me fall in love with her and adore her. And that person is you. You are not just an ordinary person who entered my life only to leave again... You are someone who entered my heart, took it, and imprisoned it there so that I would never go to another girl. I am captivated by your love, like a prisoner of war. I cannot escape, because you keep me imprisoned in your prison of love.

They say April is famous for April Fools' Day. We met at the very beginning of April, and I never expected that the joke would turn into reality. The first time, I joined your random team, and all of this happened. It was the most beautiful coincidence of my life. My hand pressed the random-team button that you had created... and now that very same hand is the one writing this letter to you. When you added me on TikTok, and when you sent me your first picture and told me you were going to visit your relative, I was surprised that you sent me your picture when we had only known each other for a few days. I told you not to send your pictures to strangers back then. But now I am not a stranger, hehehe. I am your husband and you are my wife, and I will remain that way forever. I want to be the only person who sees you from now on — no strangers, and no one else seeing my beautiful wife's beauty. At first, I knew you did not trust me. It was very difficult to earn your trust. Sometimes you would run away from me and make excuses so you would not have to play with me. That made me a little sad because I wanted to earn your trust. I did not want to hurt you. I only wanted to play with you during that time. Then you gave me your game account. I never knew how you trusted me enough to give me your account information and let me play on it. I know you were extremely scared the first time you gave me your account — so scared that you even created a new account to watch me while I played, just to make sure I would not do anything bad, hahaha. After everything that happened to you, and before I confessed my love to you, I decided that I would not leave you or abandon you in your difficult situation. You had trusted me and let me know what had happened, so I decided to be your support and to be the person who would accept you exactly as you are. Because you are kind-hearted, beautiful, incredibly talented, and hardworking. Even though you have sometimes misjudged yourself, I am here now. I will not let anyone touch you except me, when we are destined to be together. I would confess my love to you a billion times if you wanted me to. I would tell you that I love you, love you, love you, and love you, and I would never feel tired or bored of loving you. Because I will keep loving you forever, whether I want to or not, because my heart is already with you. It is reserved for you, and I will never be able to take it back. Because I adore you, my beloved.

The sweetest moments that happen between us are the ones when I see you happy. Whether it is getting a skin you have wanted so badly in the game, or the childish little things you do in the chat, all of it makes me love you more and more and more, endlessly. A love with no limits... The moment I felt that we were getting closer was when you decided to trust me. I was so happy because I had finally earned that trust from you. And I will never forget the moments when you stood beside me during my hardest times, when I was exhausted and wished I could die and find rest from this world. But you stood beside me and told me that you wanted me. Those were among the moments that made me feel that I was important to someone else... You gave me life and a reason to continue living. That reason is you.

Your smile when you laugh, and your beautiful voice when I hear you laughing shyly while we are playing sometimes, make me so happy. They make me love you more than I did before. Your drawings and your vocal talent that I have seen are among the most wonderful things I have ever seen in you. You are so beautiful, talented, and intelligent. And I will never forget your exaggerated kindness. Sometimes I used to hate that kindness of yours because of the other boys :) But not anymore. Now, no one else gets to see your beautiful kindness and tenderness toward me except me. I am the only one who has a kind and tender wife, the most beautiful person I have ever met in my life — and that person is you. Your strange and adorable behavior, your sometimes sarcastic laugh, and the times when you do something mischievous and I have to deal with its consequences never make me tired of you. Instead, they create beautiful memories between us. They never make me dislike you or hate you. They make me love you with a love that has no end. There are little details about you that you do not even notice. You do not realize that these childish things you do do not make me dislike you at all. Quite the opposite: they make me love you more and more.

I wish so much that I could be close to you, so I could see your real beauty up close and tell you just how lucky I am to have a girlfriend like you... The first thing I want to do when I see you is give you a hug that lasts for an incredibly long time. I want to hold you for hours so I can express all the love I have kept inside me throughout all these days that have passed. Every time, I wish you were standing right in front of me so I could hold you tightly. I hope we get to live through so many beautiful moments together. Talking to you through a screen makes it impossible for me to express my love sufficiently. Every time, I wish I could hug you and tell you how much I love you and how much I adore you, but that is difficult right now...

The first dream that must come true, and the one I must keep thinking about, is for us to become each other's destiny. I am yours and you are mine forever. For us to get married and become husband and wife. That is the best wish that could ever come true in my life: for you to be mine... I imagine our life together, and I cannot imagine my life with anyone else. It is impossible for me even to think about that. There is only one person on my mind, someone I want to let take over my entire life and make it their own — and that person is you. We will visit so many places together, and I will enjoy holding your hand. I will never let it go, whether you want me to or not, hehehe. Little and silly things will happen between us, creating beautiful and funny memories. I hope our life will be filled with happiness. If there is one prayer I want to be answered, there is only one thing I wish for: you.

Some feelings are difficult to put into words. So I chose a few songs that I wanted to share with you. Every melody has a little place in this world I made for us.

Happy birthday, Lyubov. I hope that on every birthday you celebrate, I will be there with you, and that I will continue to be your beloved, your support, your strength, and your future husband. On every birthday of yours, I hope I will be there. I will never leave you. These are the promises that will remain between us for a lifetime, and I will never give up on them or on you.

These are a few pictures, my love, that I chose as an expression of my love for you. Understand them however you wish, but truly, these are things that make me want to have you all to myself, so that you will not belong to anyone else. They are also things that express the future we dream of and the life I hope to live with you.